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Thursday, September 29, 2011
A-cha!


i'm a couple of days late but it doesn't matter! super junior's back for the last time with heechul with acha heheh. the song isn't exactly my type but i guess it's pretty cool, though i was definitely expecting more for dance.. hmm. not much from eunhyuk this time ): but heechul and leeteuk and shindong got large part! yay! i guess they let heechul have it cuz he's in the army now. kinda sad he won't be there for a-cha promotions but it's ok! i still have teukie (: i think he looks so good now. oh and check out sungmin and heechul's bangs. and yesung's hair. if i had the chance i think i'd do my hair like yesung's for the fun of it hee.

econs paper tomorrow. not half done but i'm watching stuff on youtube. omg the internet is one evil thing.

leeteuk hello baby! i'm definitely gonna watch more of this after promos (: but here's the first episode for now. gosh. he's so awkward with the baby it makes me cringe. but i think i'm no better.
hello goodbye; 1:18 PM


Saturday, September 24, 2011
BASKETBALL :D


for all the basketball i've been playing in school of late. (: i'm not really good at basketball because i'm usually bad at dribbling and defending and, aiyah. everything in general. the only thing i have is my height. i have this theory that if you play against me, you'd be totally freaked about my height for awhile, then 10 minutes into the game, you realise i'm pretty useless. D: oh well. but i'm trying! and hopefully i'll get better in time for games fest after promos (: with two people standing at 178cm (def the two tallest girls in school), one of them being a national team bballer (or something along those lines), a fantastic netballer who claims she can't play basketball (who cares HAHA), a jumper, whose defence, i think, is gonna be great, and lovely point guard short girl, we should be good. 5v5 basketball! yay! i just played yesterday, actually. for PE. i guess i can still shoot, albeit not with hundred percent accuracy, but i think it isn't too bad. i just have to learn to release the ball correctly under pressure. stress is bad for performance D: ie, stress is bad for promos! heh should be studying now, but i'll get back in abit. i've been thinking of somebody all week and it sucks. i don't even know why i'm thinking of that person! so weird. but anyway, imma go on a hiatus for abit. so i'll still be online watching vids if i've got time, but too lazy to blog with the scarce time i have D:

(oh my. my writing style seems to have changed. oh goodness. what's happening.)
hello goodbye; 4:27 PM


Saturday, September 17, 2011




talk about typical asian parents. they're the same almost anywhere in the world. guess we just gotta live with it. before we move out, and become parents ourselves, and realise, EH I THINK I'M TREATING MY KIDS THE SAME WAY THEY TREATED ME. heh. that's what happens when you love your kids, i guess!
hello goodbye; 5:11 PM


Wednesday, September 14, 2011
tears




oh wells there are times i really needa cry bad. but the tears won't come. sometimes i wonder what's so embarrassing about crying. even grown men cry. but for me, i hate it when people see me cry. it's terrible. so yeah. just a thought. anyway. i've missed these boys so much.


happy mid week, people. and to monica dear. happy birthday (: love you so much. stay happy always.
hello goodbye; 11:52 PM


the pursuit of happyness

i haven't updated in awhile! been busy and lazy.
don't really feel like writing much. cuz my mood is still kinda bad and and i don't feel like airing it here.

but the best thing that made me laugh like nobody's business today is when abigail and i were listening to the glee version of teenage dream sung by darren criss i think. and shaun looked at us quizzically and abigail asked, 'so shaun, can you relate to this?' i laughed.

this is how the previous exchange went:
i look through the songs in his phone and go: omg! you listen to taylor swift?? HAHA
shaun: yeah! i can totally relate to her songs! like you know, she wears short skirts and i wear t-shirts. she's cheer captain and i'm on the bleachers.

another one of those laugh out loud moment courtesy of chin.

on a side note. i think i find it harder to laugh genuinely as each day goes by. stuff you hear from me these days are probably false. oh well. where did happyness go

hello goodbye; 12:18 AM


Monday, September 5, 2011
Do you give me as much as i give you?
'People only take us for granted because we let them. We let slip faults too easily, we make ourselves too available, we put too low our expectations, and hold in our disappointments too often. But then we do this, only because they mean more to us, than we do to them. Yet, how can we help it?' - my wise junior, Eunice.

For all the crap you hand me, this, is for you. ok, maybe you don't mean that much to me anymore. but you get the point. the bit about holding in our disappointments too often? look at yourself and tell me how many times you've made my heart drop with a mere email or text. if i keep count, it's been three times. maybe more. i'm not usually that nit-picky but you're driving me to the edge. i try. i keep stuff i say in check, i watch how i am around you, i PRETEND nothing happened between us when we're with other people or even on a daily basis. i don't bring anything up. nothing. we go on with life as usual, and you deceptively lead me to think everything's fine. but in fact, you're brewing thoughts in your mind i don't even wanna imagine what's going on in there. you think i'm doing you a disfavour and treating you different from everybody else. you think i'm out to spite you. oh come on. quit lying to yourself. are you even worth the effort for me to think up ideas to spite you? you're not even fun to spite, for one. (everything else i just typed after this got deleted for some reason omg now even blogger hates me what's this. D:) geez i can't remember what i typed. everything was so impulsive just now. i guess God doesn't want me to continue typing all those bitter stuff that i was almost gonna post. but yeah. just in case you read this, i just want you to know that i'm not gonna change for you. so get over your whole insecurity and whatever shit that's making you hate me cause i treat everybody the same way. and if you don't think the problem lies with you, then i'm sorry. that's the best i can do, i'm merely trying to accommodate you and if you can't learn to accommodate me, then sad to say, this is the way the world works. give and take.
hello goodbye; 11:34 PM


Friday, September 2, 2011
SHOUTOUT
shoutout to mon! he's wayy badder than i thought! hahah a total bitch and a waste of my time. (: plus, kinda not that goodlooking either. i think i was disillusioned by the floppy hair (ilovefloppyhair!) i still am, kinda! but i don't like him anymore. yay! :D

ok that was kinda like a truckload of self-assuring nonsense. i hope it works haha
hello goodbye; 10:34 PM


where? oh, there.

can't believe i burnt an entire morning online reading victor kim's blog and watching the quest crew videos etc. i think i've moved away from kpop momentarily. there's nothing much going on there now anyway. so it's a good change i guess? for all you people who can never understand why i like kpop, be glad i'm moving on abit. So yes, back to the waste of my morning. promos are in 4 weeks but i have to get started on any revision, plus topics which sound absolutely foreign to me cause i fail to grasp anything in lectures and tutorials haven't covered them (like chem and intergation and econs OMG). so i'd better get cracking, but not before posting, heh. haven't posted in almost a week again.

this weeks been a waste of time! spent the first bits cramming for the chem test, which i was largely unable to answer. so much for studying. wednesday and thursday was basically spent in the 'oh the holidays are coming! i deserve to slack off' attitude D: which explains why i've only done 4 sums in two days. nothing else. oh man. and today's FRIDAY (: TGIF totally lookin forward to the weekends, but i'm dreading the studying that comes in the week ahead.

Be yourself day yesterday has go to be the highlight of my week! donned the mg uniform for the first time in eons. it felt. foreign. D: so much for wearing it for ten straight years! the skirt seemed so long and the mg girls who wore it were totally like 'my skirt is wayy to long! so embarrassing omg!' but yeah! it's still the nicest, most comfortable uniform around. (:

passed econs by two marks! so much for getting an A during common tests. haha hopefully i'll do better in promos or i'm dead. heh. but on the other hand, things are looking up for physics! not failing as much now, thank God. (: i'm praying everything goes up from here.

on a side note, the only interesting (and heartbreaking) news this weeks been the fact that heechul enlisted in the army yesterday (hahaha i'm not THAT over kpop yet! i just don't follow as much). and teuk was crying buckets, my heart broke.


anyway, all the best to heenim, the man with porcelain skin and awesome attitude (: gonna miss you, but it's only two years. no big deal.

oh yeah, spending a morning reading victor kim's blog has been fruitful too. check this out

Who/what has been your inspiration to keep going even when things aren’t going well?
there have definitely been times where things werent going as successfully as they are now. towards the end of my time at UC Irvine, i was very lost with what i wanted to do with my life post-college. but one thing that provided strength and hope in those times, was the belief that God is in complete control. i firmly believe that God has written out the story of my life long before i was even born, and that i am simply living out the motion picture that He has already created for me.

If you could go back in time, what person would you like to have a chat with or hang with and why?
i would love to hang out with Jesus. He just seems like a really good guy you know?

What advice would you like to give anyone looking to follow in your footstep?
“Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” (Matthew 7:7)

whether these are just words, or he really believes it. it's kinda speaking to me. right now. when i'm in a position where i don't really know who i am.

hello goodbye; 12:48 PM