LION HEARTED LOVE

Sunday, January 30, 2011 not that bad

SS3, first show was yesterdayy! omg hahahahahahaha. but the feeling of not going wasn't as bad as i expected. it's just another concert after all.

here's a fan account. credits to cyn unnie

today, i went to see super show 3.. my actual ticket is B12, it's a crappy seat, but somehow there's one girl who wants to trade her T16 ticket with mine, so i agree..

I sat quite far from the first row, and the panel blocked 7/8 of the stage.. :(( however, i can see the backstage! and my seatmate is a kyuhyun biased too! :))

so while waiting with much anticipation, i exchanged phone no. with her..

and then it's started..

dum dum dumdumdum dum, dum dum dumdumdum dum *sorry sorry rnb beat*

sorry sorry started.. my heart was beating rapidly, synchronised with the sorry2 beat.. and then i saw kyuhyun from a far!! :D kyaaaaaaaa.. i screamed like mad.. sorry2 is super hot la i tell you..

and then.. umm.. dont don!!!

then confession.. ok.. i cant mention one by one.. but the inteeresting part is

1. kyuhyun went to our side and i got to see a glimpse of him.. OMG HE IS SO HOT.. HE IS HOTTER IN REAL LIFE.. T__T

2. i got sprayed by eunhyuk's water.. :DD

3. i saw leeteuk and ryeowook and donghae and eunhyuk quite closely.. leeteuk is very good looking! ryeowook is super duper cute omg i love him.. donghae is really good looking.. and i kinda like eunhyuk's hair.. oh and yesung, he's hotttt..

ermm.. i cant remember what else..

oh and i went with my cousin, she got a much better seat.. and you know what, SHE TOUCHES KYUHYUN'S HAND 2 TIMES!!! and i didnt even get once!! and she also touches (if i'm not mistaken) ryeowook leeteuk donghae siwon and sungmn's hands as well.. damn lucky la she.. i'm so jealous.. T___T hahaha.. after she told me that, i rubbed and shoke her hand, because got kyuhyun's touch mah.. hahaha..

and there is princekyu (kyu's fanclub) group at the other side of the stage, and kyuhyun went to that side and handshoke them, waved at them a lot of times!!! i'm so so jealous.. T__T it's like kyu knew that they're his fanclubs..

and kyuhyun also took a selcaaaaaa with fans' camera..

and he also went down to the moshpit area.. ( i wish i were in moshpit.. )

i collected many banners, but at the end i lost them all but donghae's banner.. :(( i got 2 kyu banner leh, but i lost them all.. T___T

my cousin bought a $50 towel.. it's so niccee..

wat i hate about today is the rain.. it's raining all day and i was drenched.. my shoes became disgusting, wet and humid bcause of the rain.. -____-

but overall, i enjoyed the concert and looked forward to the next concert.. i'm so tired and sleepy it's 00:10 now..

apologies for the english! (:

hello goodbye; 1:59 PM

Friday, January 28, 2011 now i'm feelin so high cause we're one-three

OG13 cool as ice

like a blizzard

when we cheer we do it right

getting slizzard

OG13 on the rise

like-one-three

now i'm feelin so high cause we're one-three

cause we're one-three

na-na-na na-na

now i'm feelin so high cause we're one one-three

HEHHHHHHHHH, ORIENTATION! so school has started and it's NJ for me! haha. it was pretty boring yesterday cause it was all talks and rubbish. but today was quite fun cause of OG bonding! it's fun to bully the OGLS (: hehhhh. i don't like the feeling of being a newbie though. i remember i used to look at the sec1s in MG with this condescending attitude. like, HAHAHHA.YOU ALL NOOBS. kinda thing. so i feel kinda silly. i might be on the receiving end this time. oops. NJ is not quite as mugger as i expected, except we had selection tests on the first day of school (i told abee and ruth choy and they were like, WAH TRULY A MUGGER SCHOOL) so i went for this accelerated maths test yesterday. haha WASTE TIME LA. i could only do about 5 of 20 MCQ. and that's cause i worked backwards from the options given. haha. looks like i'm not cut out for this kinda nerdy stuff. SEE! I'M NOT THAT NERDYYYYY. i'd say my groups pretty nerdy la. haha. but the people are really nice. except it gets a little awkward with the guys, cause they're not very... mature. hahaha. when i think mature, i kinda think justin see and clarence. that kinda level. okk nevermind. it's hard to explain. BUT OMG. GUYS WEARING BRIGHT RED SHORTS. HAHAHAHHAHAHA. I FEEL SO SORRY FOR THEM. :D ok i know. i'm so bad right. but sorry la! i think what i want to think (: red shorts on guys is just.. odd.. many MG peeps over at NJ this year. wonder why. hmm. but alot of them are kinda mugger-ish. except maybe jennifer, chen gim, cheryl sng and ernwei? and a couple more people? i won't say i'm not mugger-ish, but... better than some people! :D heheeee. i guess i'll stick to my OG for now! qiaopo, carolyn, vinesha... erm erm. idk who else. i'm really bad at names.

tomorrow's secondary segment CNY lunch! YAYYY, food (: AND NEXT WEEK IS CHINESE NEW YEAR! hahahahaha. super happy ok. gonna wear a skirt on the first day. SURPRISED??? i know right. it's like evann? skirt?? no way!!! i'll take a nice picture and post it sometime. (: talking about skirts! I HAVE TO WEAR SKIRT FOR THE FIRST TIME ON MONDAY! yay or no yay? haha. imma use elastic band for my shirt. shhhhhhh. as long as the DM doesn't realise. haha. major skirt folding exercise on monday morning. gotta wake up earlier to make sure i get my new uniform on right! (THE DM IS LIKE WOAH STRICT LA. IF I SCREW UP I DIE CAN.) so i better make my elastic band inconspicuous. hehe.

hello goodbye; 8:10 PM

Tuesday, January 25, 2011 i can't take my breath

Breathe~Beast

Ha Let me talk about my

At your cold back turned away from me, its like time just froze for a second
In my white, blank mind, I need to hold on to you, no I need to send you away
Oh Living on forgetting you, Crying because I couldn’t forget you
They say I should just leave it to be, I’m not too sure myself

(Breathe Breathe)

I want to forget, if you turn away from me I don’t want to hold on to you again
Words from you telling me to think about this over and over again
I don’t want to ponder over that anymore, now I want to throw you away

Don’t go, don’t leave me, thinking many times over again
I think it will be hard for me to forget
I don’t think I can forget you

I can’t take my breath breath breath
As time passes by, as more time passes by Oh
No longer I can’t hold my breath breath breath
As more time trickles by, my breath starts to suffocate me, My breath Yeah

Breath in breath out ha ha
Breath in breath out ha ha
Breath in breath out ha ha
Breath in breath out ha ha

I want to erase, there is no longer a space for you, no place for you to return
If you come closer to me, I think I will go further away from you
Can you move out of the way now? I want to throw you away

Stop, don’t try to turn back, thinking many times over again
I think it will be really bad to erase you, I will really go crazy

Breath in breath out ha ha
Breath in breath out ha ha
Breath in breath out ha ha
Breath in breath out ha ha

I don’t know~
I don’t know yeah~

Yes or No The night with lights asleep, the room with lights turned off, my tangled up thoughts of you
Doesn’t untangle, What do I have to blame to make myself feel a little bit better?
Was this deep love a sin? They say I should just leave it to be, huh, I’m not too sure myself

hello goodbye; 6:07 PM

Monday, January 24, 2011

leeteuk tweeted something on the importance of loyalty recently. i can't really remember what he said, but it's something about loyalty in friends and in love and family. loyalty... he really makes me think twice about what it means to be loyal and always think of others before self. and to support your mates in everything they do. like, stand by them, always think of them... stuffs like that.

hello goodbye; 6:10 PM

cracked up

a couple of videos that never fail to crack me up (: my two favourite groups are always making me smile. school starts in two days. gotta be in school by 0730 on thursday. nomore late nights (with KBS to keep me company) and sleep ins. sadded. but that'll probably be the only part i miss. i really can't wait to get out of the house. i'm getting tired of lazing around home everyday. partly cause i'm lazy and don't bother to exercise. heh. but! i'm kinda excited for most part. it's gonna be a chiongg period, worse than Os, cause we've gotta start revving up the moment school starts. no honeymoon period. so, if i ever feel down, someone remind me to watch these two videos. they'll definitely make my day (:

and. i read the thing on heechul's reply to antifans. heechul you're the best. standing up for yourself like that:

“Worry about the country, the society, and the economy in that time. When you have the time to read Internet replies, read a newspaper article.. What’s the point of being able to read if you can’t understand what you’re reading.. You have no start and finish and it’s all illogical. If you just stay silent, at least you’ll be average. Arf arf~”

“I doubt most of the country cares about me or all of you. In fact, I don’t even know if they’ll see this post. They just say it’s fun if I say it is and say it’s not if I say it’s not.. You all act like you’re the spokespeople for the whole country.”

“Have you tried doing something good for your parents while you have time to bash someone? Turn the light on in your room instead of your eyes and draw out your future. But I guess I’m just as childish for fighting the people shitting on me here.. If you’re gonna shit on something, go do it in your bathroom.”

“Also, you red-eyed dogs that don’t have anything to rip apart. I guess you know you did wrong, because when something comes out you make it into something big and go insane… You are part of the public and you are part of the country, but you’re neither the whole public nor the entire country.”

“I can do good things for my parents, and I’m thankful that I have something I can call my own.. Do I seem like a slave to you? I’m sure all of the people who have experienced society doesn’t think so. I don’t know if you’ll see this or not, but I’m going to thank all those people ^-^”

“Let me ask all of the public. Do I seem like a slave? Do I seem not free? Before I was a celebrity, I was like every other man and I’ve done part-time and full-time jobs. I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been in the society for a bit, but I’m thankful for the way I am now.”

Source: @Heedictator

posted by: elf101586@sapphirepearls.com

next time i get slammed by people, i know what to do.

hello goodbye; 4:14 PM

Sunday, January 23, 2011

sometimes i just try to recall what it was like when we were all right. i can't remember. it's vague. i can only remember some of the bad stuff. which i didn't even experience firsthand, mindyou. it came from things i heard from others. 'ohh xxxx is dao-ing the whole wide world' yeahh. but we were still fine i guess. until one of us gave up. i try to remember the good things. i remembered the jelly hearts. i remembered the iMac. i remembered SYF. but vaguely. only cause of the pictures. that helped me remember.

hello goodbye; 2:30 PM

NOT ALONE

NOT ALONE-PARK JUNGMIN

You’re exhausted, I can feel it.
I can see that you want to leave.
I can’t breathe without you here.
I can’t see. I can’t feel or hold you.
I’m tired. Stop, stop, stop, stop right there.
I’ll take a step, step, step to escape.
I keep screaming that it’s too late, that I can’t change, that it’s the end!

So I can believe, I’m not alone. Now I’m not alone, there’s no reason for sadness.
And I can feel it, I’m not alone, Surely not alone, never to feel exhausted.

One more time now, Down, down, down, down.
(No, no, no, no!)
Down, down, down, down.
(No, no, no, no!)
Even if time passes by, I’m not alone.
Because of you, baby.
I can believe.

Even if I get over you,
Memories will remain.
I can’t heal the scars that I carry.
Time keeps stop, stop, stop, stopping here.
Another step, step, step to escape.
I cry that we’ll never go back, that we’re too late, that it’s the end!

So I can believe, I’m not alone. Now I’m not alone, there’s no reason for sadness.
And I can feel it, I’m not alone, Surely not alone, never to feel exhausted.

One more time now, Down, down, down, down.
(No, no, no, no!)
Down, down, down, down.
(No, no, no, no!)
Even if time passes by, I’m not alone.
Because of you, baby,
I can believe.

Even on nights that are pitch black, I can’t breathe without you.
I’ll never be afraid again, because of you!

So I can believe, I’m not alone. Now I’m not alone, I can turn everything back.
And I can feel it, I’m not alone, Surely not alone, never to feel exhausted.

One more time now, Down, down, down, down.
(No, no, no, no!)
Down, down, down, down.
(No, no, no, no!)
Even if everything breaks, I’m not alone.
I only need you to know,
I’m not alone.
You’re not alone.

so happy for you jungminnie (: hopefully double-s will get back together soon!

hello goodbye; 1:55 PM

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

oh... they just keep pushing the envelope. i watched the posted the other remix performance the other time but i think this is much better. hehe. though i really don't see the difference in the bonamana remix except the start part. and teukie looks so good (: thanks to grace to specifically me told me: you like leeteuk?? you better watch the GDA performance!

sad they didn't win the idk what award that other fans were super pissed over cause it went to SNSD. but i'm so much more mature! i don't really bother (: grow up man. not everything in life will always go the way you want it to.

hello goodbye; 5:55 PM

where do we go from here?

it's been awhile since i blogged. been a little busy with choosing schools last week, plus watching autumn's concerto and playing with my new touch (:

but, i must say, choosing schools is a really bad experience. i know, everybody says i can go to practically ANY school i want. i know i know. but what's best for me? initially, before results, i told myself that i would go to RI if i could make it. but no! after results, my parents weren't too keen on me going there, even though it'd be much more convenient since my brother and i would be studying in the same freaking smart top school in singapore. i mean, won't they be really proud to say, oh! both my children attend RAFFLES INSTITUTION. personally, if i were somebody else i'd be like. WOW. jawdrop. your kids so smart arhh. but they said that the RI and RGS KIDS (since they haven't undergone the 'baptism of fire' and taken the crappy exam called the O levels) would stick to their cliques and since i wasn't that outgoing or social (some how when you say outgoing/social, i think, NAT.. haha. not that it's bad. it's just a general impression) enough. so. despite the beautiful campus (OH GOSH LOOK AT THEIR LIBRARY FOR GOODNESS SAKE AND TELL ME WHERE ELSE YOU HAVE 2 FIELDS IN ONE COMPOUND. PLUS A POOL AND WHATEVER OTHER FACILITIES) and prestige, RI got eliminated. ahwells.

then came ACJC. not ACSi mind you. don't intend to do IB. so i figured that there'd be no point if i chose ac cause.. well.. let's just say i deserve better.

and NJ. at first i was rather ok-ish with it. you know, since ERNWEI (heart heart heart) and ANNABELLE (you're too smart for NJ anna!) already chose it... but somehow i didn't feel too good after going for the open house. i just felt bad. i went home and cried. literally broke down cause i was confused. terrible feeling.

you must be wondering, what about HCI? i kinda didn't consider it till the last day. but too late for regrets anyway. i chose NJ in the end. cause at least i'd have company (not just people i KNOW, but people i LOVE) nesides, it's about 18+months before As. yes, i've started the countdown already. sure i can survive whatever comes my way these few months~ (oh i forgot, SHERRY WONG IS COMING NJ TOO. sherryyy! if you see this, I REALLY HOPE YOU CAN COME NJ SO I'LL HAVE CHURCHIES-YOOS MATES TO CHILL OUT WITH)

oh, but back to RI. actually, the people there don't seem too bad la. idk. maybe it's just the few that i know? (ADVENTURE TRIBE MATES (((: )

talking about adventure tribe, sherry asked me who was in my group for iLOVE camp. i was like.. oh, marcus they all...

and she went: Oh! the campus superstar one arh!

i was like: he was in campus super star meh.

then i went to search. OMG. HAHAHAHAHAA. REALLY LEH. SUPER DUPER COOL.

this was his last performance after he got eliminated. which i thought was pretty good! :D

got to learn a new game called tchoukball on saturday. i think i lost my ball sense. grace and mengyang were right. i think i can't throw a ball far enough or hard enough anymore ): and i'm a useless player la. i just stand in the middle and go static. haha. but tchouk ball doesn't need much moving anyway. no need to defend or intercept. pretty cool game, i must say. totally non-contact so it can be played mixed gender.. i wouldn't mind playing la. but gotta get my reflexes and fitness up first (:

I THINK PEARL IS MY ANGEL. haha. we're playing angel and mortal in church and pearl was in my tchoukball group on saturday. after that she wrote me a note saying my ball sense was not bad (I REALLY IS BAD), cause i kept complaining to her about my sucky ball sense. and i got gobstoppers from her!! (: hehe i love the stuff. used to eat them when i was younger. Jonathan, who's like this guy in my group watched as chrystella passed me the bag with the note and the sweets, saying 'this is for you from your angel' . he totally went like, do i have an angel? is my angel gonna give me stuff toooo?? hahahhaa. i thought guys don't get jealous over such small things.

AND! I FINALLY GOT MY TOUCH ON SUNDAY! :D hehhhhh. i accompanied my dad to epicenter and simlim square(to get printer ink) and figured that in simlim square:

1) 80% of the people milling around are MALE. understandable. how many ladies would be interested in electronics anyway?

2) SNSD VIDEOS ARE ON REPEAT IN EVERY SHOP SELLING ELECTRONIC DEVICE WITH A SCREEN. (and a little kara or BEG) be it laptops, netbooks, TVs, mp4s... everywhere i turned was like 'RUN DEVIL DEVIL RUN DEVIL RUN RUN' or 'GEE GEE GEE GEE BABY BABY BABY'. i was like WTH can??? then i began thinking. why SNSD and not SUPER JUNIOR or SHINee or SS501? then i realised. cause it appeals to the male majority. ewww. they're using SNSD to draw in male customers.

talking about kara. they're disbanding. DSP is in deep crap. haha. loser DSP, losing another valuable band. but i'm kinda sad kara might go their separate ways. they're really talented and cute. plus, they're kinda my favourite girl group. ah wells.

one last thing. PARK JUNGMIN of SS501 IS COMING BACK TOMORROW (HA! TO DSP. IN YOUR FACE) so happy for jungmin ((: i can't wait to see his new album!

hello goodbye; 3:26 PM

Saturday, January 1, 2011 it only gets better

SO! iLOVE camp for the past 4 days! it was such a great experience. really really don't regret going (: God's love is like, wow. indescribable.

and today the new sec1s are joining us permanently. hmms... i shan't say more on that, cause i'll be moving to jpic segment soon.

while i was at camp for a short 4 days, so much happened in the kpop world! so now i have to do catch up. all the awards shows just passed, so i'm watching suju, shinee and whatever else that looks interesting. but mainly suju, cause ss501 is not active and did not perform. hehh

the bass beats are amazing for the remixes. goodness me! i never thought sorry sorry and bonamana could sound this way. and don't they just get hotter and hotter? hyuk's jawline gets more and more defined each time i see him..

and f(x)? SEXY. really really sexy. ok and i must admit, kyuhyun is getting better and better.

this was during christmas, which i missed as well cause christmas period was really busy with all the dinners and luncheons and what not. they never fail to make me smile! the weather must have been freezing when they performed this.. oh, and i'm more determined than ever to dye my hair blonde and cut it like leeteuk-short when i have the chance. all my favourite members are going blonde! teukie's always blonde (don't ask why), hyuk, and wookie turned blonde/blondish! and and! heechul used to be blonde. so!

jjong looks like a prince when he performed lucifer. haha.

ohhh the beauty of the work of plastic. haha. ok i'll admit now that i bet you all of them had plastic surgery done. i used to defend that, but nevermind now. as long as they look fabulous, nothing else matters (:

hello goodbye; 1:26 PM