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Saturday, June 25, 2011
just keep hanging on


i was just thinking and looking through facebook and all and i realised how many people have fallen along the way. you don't see them around anymore or they're going to Church just for the sake of going. it scares me that i might end up like that too. being born in a Christian family doesn't mean that you're automatically a Christian. it's having to follow Christ and to live your life for Him. but that's another story.

what do you say to someone who's lost all his sense of self-worth?

it's really painful to see you fall away and feel so useless about yourself. you used to be this big guy who had everything going well for you. then. suddenly, you lost almost everything, save for your life and family. you had to relearn stuff, and i know getting back on your feet wasn't easy. literally. but, i've always kept you in my mind, even now, when it seems you're on the track of recovery. my greatest dream was, and still is, to see you testify about how God gave you a second chance at life. along with my other dream that i share with sherry to see EH back to the person he used to be. and i'm sure things will get better, even if it takes a long time. i guess parents will always be parents. your mom's just putting up a strong front for your sake. she loves you too much and doesn't wanna trouble you further with her own thoughts and problems. she knows that you're already having a hard enough time. just know that God's always with you. even if you somehow think He isn't anymore. and i'll always be praying for you. the same way i've been doing since the very day you fell. hey, that's what friends are for right? wanna see you stand tall again, dude. don't crumble or i'd be the tallest around. (:

hello goodbye; 3:49 PM


Tuesday, June 21, 2011
servanthood


it looks like i survived! heeee. i'm back from 30 hours of not eating, which effectively became my detox camp (: i am a happy kid now because i feel much better than after i came back from hongkong and eating that much food. it was an interesting experience where we walked in the shoes of a needy(not to mention, starving) kid for a day and did stuff that he or she would have to do. part of it was to roleplay as a shoe shine boy. I've always heard how they did the whole feet washing thing to imitate Christ in MG prefects camp and all and i always wanted to be part of it. It finally happened in famine camp, of all places! it wasn't even a Church camp or anything, which was kinda odd. but anyways. bending down to wash someone's feet, or in this case, clean someone's shoes, is really an act of humility and servanthood. i know it must have sucked for Jesus, as God, to have to stoop so low just to wash the feet of his disciples. and their feet probably wasn't the cleanest thing. But He chose to do it anyway. Because He wanted to teach His disciples humility and servanthood. This was the way He showed His love for them and in the same way, they were to serve others out there in the process of winning them over for Christ. and while i had to do it in camp, i understood the humility it must have taken. i scoff everytime nj talks about service with honour, cause sometimes, i think they don't really know what they're talking about. Service cannot come from man alone, but he must know the heart of God, to truly serve with passion and for Christ. imo.

John 13

Jesus Washes His Disciples’ Feet
1 It was just before the Passover Festival. Jesus knew that the hour had come for him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he loved them to the end.

2 The evening meal was in progress, and the devil had already prompted Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot, to betray Jesus. 3 Jesus knew that the Father had put all things under his power, and that he had come from God and was returning to God; 4 so he got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. 5 After that, he poured water into a basin and began to wash his disciples’ feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him.

6 He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, “Lord, are you going to wash my feet?”

7 Jesus replied, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.”

8 “No,” said Peter, “you shall never wash my feet.”

Jesus answered, “Unless I wash you, you have no part with me.”

9 “Then, Lord,” Simon Peter replied, “not just my feet but my hands and my head as well!”

10 Jesus answered, “Those who have had a bath need only to wash their feet; their whole body is clean. And you are clean, though not every one of you.” 11 For he knew who was going to betray him, and that was why he said not every one was clean.

12 When he had finished washing their feet, he put on his clothes and returned to his place.“Do you understand what I have done for you?” he asked them. 13 “You call me ‘Teacher’ and ‘Lord,’ and rightly so, for that is what I am. 14 Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another’s feet. 15 I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you. 16 Very truly I tell you, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. 17 Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them.

you're probably wondering how hungry i was during camp! well, i wasn't hahaa. they fed us milo and soy milk and chrysanthemum tea so i was fine (:

and ac kids are the best, but that's another story for another time heh. too lazy to write about that now

i've been mia in the kpop circle for the longest time! i think i haven't checked allkpop in 3 to 4 months and i don't even know who's comeback and all. until i saw the MVs grace posted :/ i am such a bad fan! but here's a little section dedicated to my favourite genre of music once more

SS501 solo comebacks are almost complete! save for kyujong who has been really really silent, i wonder what became of him ): jiawen must be dying waiting for him to comeback. heh, but i'm so proud of you boys, cause you guys will always be the best and my number one favourite (: (no, i didn't forget. suju comes a close second. double-s just gets priority cause they were my first bias haha) here's all the somebacks so far. i'm reposting some so i can compare who's better haha

KIM HYUNJOONG

HEO YOUNGSAENG

PARK JUNGMIN

KIM HYUNGJOON

i realised all of them have the same theme/style of dancing with a girl, which is really typical, except for jungmin! his comeback is really unique (: but i must say, youngsaeng did a great job this time around and he looks so good. (: heh. never been my favourite but this is good. hyungjoon is the usual old vibe. never liked it very much but oh wells. hyunjoong is my ultimate favourite (i admit i'm biased, but yeah)! anyways! good job to my all favourites no matter what critiques say(: hehh.

2PM

i didn't even know they came back!! ): i miss junsu's floppy fringe. sighs. the concept is the party thing, but it seems like a spoof of GD and TOP's high high. hurmph. and the energy level isn't high enough. a bit siann-ish. and the MV looks weird. hahaha idk if it's just me but heir heads look disjointed. :/ i miss 2PM's old style ): where's without you when you need it?

oh did i mention? IT'S ALL FILMED IN SINGAPORE, MY LOVELY HOMETOWN HAHAHHA. i can't believe i didn't know they were filming here, i would have stalked them. sighs. i'm becoming such a bad fan. heh. i'm like, suddenly so proud of singapore (: i can't believe i took so long to realise it! see the SIA girl(if i were her i'd be soo hyped)? and sentosa cove? and the singapore flyer? OH SHUCKS. I DIDN'T EVEN RECOGNIZE SINGAPORE'S CITY SKYLINE FROM THE SHOT WHERE KHUN WAS PLAYING GOLF. when did that white flower looking thing spring up?? D:

F(x)

AMBER ((:

SMTOWN PARIS-SUPERJUNIOR

idk but my heart kinda aches when i watch this. it's so... dark. i know don don't is supposed to be fierce and all, but sungmin just looks demented. i'm sorry. and heechul's nuts. but that's usual. leeteuk is so tired. along with donghae and even shindong who's usuallt happy and bouncy looks exhausted. it's like they're all in a trance or something. idk. maybe i'm just being finicky. but yeah. i want the happy spunky suju back. the no other suju. :/

OH! AH! i'm gonna stop blogging now and LET IT GO cause i have to mug and i know i'm NOT ALONE in this cause lots of others have exams in a week too. and PLEASE, God, help me not to BREAKDOWN cause, HOT SUMMERS like this makes it really hard to study. keep falling asleep. so put your HANDS UP! mon's coming back in a bit. can't wait to see her hehh. (idk how to link don don't it isn't even i word hahahaha) what a mess.


hello goodbye; 2:37 PM


Thursday, June 16, 2011
Doubt is the beginning of wisdom but Faith will move mountains.


i was randomly checking out people's fb accounts (instead of doing pw, which is on fb addiction. haha. so much for trying to help others out with their addiction when i can't handle my own fb usage) and i found this on a wise person's profile

Doubt is the beginning of wisdom but Faith will move mountains.
Wise men think alike but fools seldom differ.
Never judge a book by its cover but clothes make the man.
All good things come to those who wait but time and tide wait for no man.
He who hesitates is lost but fools rush in where angels fear to tread.

The pen is mightier than the sword but only if it's a very big pen.

i really really really love this.

i shall ponder this and try to survive famine camp tomorrow. everyone out there who reads this should start praying my stomach doesn't disintegrate within six hours. the last time i fasted was when i was in primary 5 for the children of destiny camp. that was breakfast till 5 plus and i think i died? i can't remember. but yeah. at least i'm going into this camp with a secret weapon (or so i feel). i have God on my side and i'm gonna take this time to pray for those who are really starving in this world, as well as to think through my own life which has been whizzing by at the speed of light. hopefully they won't keep us too occupied so i have time to think and pray. and yes, if i get hungry, i'll just ask God to take away the hunger pangs. hahaha. secret weapon ain't a secret anymore (: gonna meet ern at 9 tomorrow for breakfast/lunch brunch thing which we shall eat alot for. and we might have to join others. oh wells i was hoping to talk to her alone. heh. but it's gonna be interesting from here on! (: just. pray my stomach doesn't eat itself up :/

hello goodbye; 11:53 PM


Friday, June 10, 2011
when love runs dry


i'm back from hongkong with the most amazing pair of purple suede vans (: my plans to get high tops didn't turn out well. i guess hongkong's not the place for it. korea would be better. that would have to wait.

but yeah! really happy with my vans and my brother's liverpool jabulani which he got for a steal (15 bucks!) teehee. gonna ask him to teach me how to play properly (:

anyways gonna be busy mugging this holiday. june holidays will never be the same again. but ah wells. the life of a jc kid.

and by the way i think i'm totally over the guy now. clean (: so so happy. hee

and kim hyunjoong is back with breakdown! be sure to check his album out (: my absolute fave kpop star of all time. sexy and charming. gotta love him


hello goodbye; 6:47 PM


Thursday, June 2, 2011
Please



LEADER'S BACK AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW. GOSH. WHAT KIND OF FAN AM I! but i'm still really glad i actually realised that he released an MV and that he's coming back in 5 days! 7th june! (: so at least now i can properly hype about his imminent comeback. hee it's been a long time since i've seen hyunjoong in an MV and it's great to see him dance and sing again. and like, basically go back to what he's cut out to do. there are times when i watch his dramas and think, hyunjoong's not really cut out for acting, is he? he's always playing the same type of roles. the cold unfeeling prince (who's really really really hot) who falls for this stupid crazy girl who teaches him to open up to others and himself. but ahwells. since he chose to take the acting route, i shall continue to support him! :D so yupps! totally hyped for 7th when he's gonna release his solo mini album. hope it's good. but if it isn't, you know i'll still support him anyway.

hello goodbye; 6:02 PM