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Friday, March 25, 2011
Sigh

hello goodbye; 12:16 AM


Tuesday, March 22, 2011
I WONDER HOW MANY MG PEOPLE JOINED CANOEING IN JC! OMG SERIOUSLY. and the most unlikely people join the hardest cca. even people like abee chan don't join canoeing for goodness sake. ): i should have joined canoeing. but nj canoeing would probably have killed me by now. hahahahaa

SHOOTING TODAY WAS AWESOMEEE. hahaha. getting a little ache but i'm fine (: managed to shoot real pellets today (: so happy and i'm not bad! better than chester haha. (being better than a guy gives you so much satisfaction. especially in a sport haha) but alenson is the best. he does pistol and his hand does not shake at all when he had to bao qiang for 45 seconds. and 45 seconds for pistol feels like eternity. i've tried before (:
hello goodbye; 8:35 PM


Sunday, March 20, 2011
BEFORE U GO
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my sexy charisma! (Y) ahahahahaha cutest ttm. i was fricking 3 mrt stations away from him cause i was at dhoby while he was at novena for his fansign yesterday! then apparently he went shopping at ion :O omo. i should have stayed around orchard longer! maybe he would have gone to somerset ): hahaha but i had church and church is good (:

but why was i in orchard? ahhaaaah! i met up with lovely joee, joyce and cynthia yesterday. it was super awesome to talk to them about school and everything. love you guys lots (:

DBSK COMEBACK AGAIN! after their fantastic comeback from a real long hiatus, their repacked album is another awesome piece of work. the mv is. epic-y! i love epic mvs! like 2am's you wouldn't answer my call and big bang's haru haru. now this:


yes i'm starting to like changmin teehee.


BEFORE U GO-DBSK

If you feel burdened by me only looking at you, I will leave now
If my uncontrolable emotions have bothered you, I will back off now

I wondered if you might just fly away from my side
I couldn’t even rest for a day or breathe a sigh of relief
I didn’t know at all that these dumb obsessions of mine would hurt you

*Just know before you go that I was the one man who loved you only
I was a stupid idiot who couldn’t even protect you because I was so foolish
You might suffer more and collapse if you stay by my side until the end
I did the right thing, someone who can free you will come to your side, will come to your side

I’ll stop making any trivial excuses so don’t make that face (It’s sad)
I simply wanted to close my lips and wish for your happiness
It’s not like that, no no no no no

The day I shielded and breathed on your cold hands due to the cold wind
The first kiss we shared for the first time in a year as I embraced you tightly
I ended up giving myself away, it’s always like that

*Repeat

Thanks for giving me the happy memories
You forget them and live, you forgot everything
Don’t look at me with a worried stare, I’m okay
The scars of this heart will heal one day
I will also meet a good person one day
Forget it! That’s right, block it all out and go quickly
Before I change my decision again and hold you back

Like a habit, I might just call you without realizing it
Hello? Hello? Hello? Hello?
Even when I stand outside your house
Because I miss you so much, you treat me coldly
hello goodbye; 5:32 PM


Thursday, March 17, 2011
i have been reading my old blog for the past hour. it really makes me wonder if the past really existed. back then cell was everything to me. it was something i looked forward to at the end of every week. it was something i used to die for. but now alot of things have changed. i can't remember the last time i experienced cell the same way as in the past. besides, i've already moved on to another cell. so there's no point in moping over such things. it's just that i kinda miss how things used to be.
rememberthetimeicriedinfronofeverybody?nobodyeverseesmecrybutthatdayitreallyhurtsobad.

and i can't believe i used to write in such terrible english! there was a 'like' in almost every sentence. and really bad singlish. i can't even believe i used to write like that! it disgusts me to read it. i remember there was this time when everybody was using 'like' in their sentences. then someone was once giving a testimony and used 'like' so often, in almost every sentence, that from then on, i called that person the 'like' person. hahaha. idk if the 'like' person still uses it that much but i think it was kinda cute.

i miss the person i used to know. i have no inkling how you are now. but looking at your fb, i know you'll be perfectly fine. the only thing i don't understand is how you can just reconnect with someone who you seemed to hate in the past. i have a feeling you're not the same person you used to be. but i really really wanna talk to you, just for once. but i know that if i see you, i'd probably not know what to say.
hello goodbye; 5:51 PM


Wednesday, March 16, 2011
I JUST REALISED G.NA APPEARED IN 2PM's 10 OUT OF 10 MV!!! :O i haven't really watched that mv so i went to check it out today. it's surprisingly funny cause all of them look so lecherous hehh. i love jay's face when his jaw dropped at the start of the mv. and g.na kinda looked hot back then as well ((: teeheeeeee


i can't remember if i posted this before:

it's a little old but i watched it again today and it struck me just how much bieber looks like jinwoon! of course i'm not talking about the real bieber. if you hang out with me often enough in school you'll know who that is hahaha. soccer bieber. yepps but i'm not complimenting him one bit. haha jinwoon is good looking and bieber can never match up to him even if they look similar. haaa i think it's his hair that makes me think they look same sameee hahhaha. so much for trying to look like show luo, bieber.

and now i really really wanna watch dream high. ): but i haven't even finished autumn's concerto yet ): sadded. all cause of the dream high mv la! blame it on taec, soohyun and wooyoung! and IU ((: i think she's the only girl idol who really makes me wanna watch her show.


todaysomeonechangedfbprofilpictureuhhhhitsscarywithallthosepeopleinthepicturehahatoobigalready
hello goodbye; 3:47 PM


Monday, March 14, 2011
seeking Him
I just went to check up on xander and kibum leaving Ukiss. ): i totally missed that piece of news when it came out last month! i'm really sad Ukiss is gonna have 2 members less. and my awesome xander won't be there anymore. the lifespan of kpop groups are getting shorter and shorter. not like ukiss is disbanding or anything, but it just won't be the same without xander and kibum.

but on the other hand! i was really surprised to find out xander's Christian!! i didn't know that! call me a bad fan. ahahha.

"Im not trying to escape from anything, just that, i need some time to calm down, to get used to everything around me, to analyze and know the people around me again. My mind is blank, my heart is already numb, i have no strength to think about anything, no mood to feel anything. i just want to follow what GOD tells me to do, one step at a time…" ----alexander

yup. there are times that i really feel this way too. kinda just needa break to go back to God. but, isn't it really hard in the world we live in with all it's distractions? sometimes i just wanna seek God for direction, but the answer just doesn't seem to come. then i'm just back to waiting and doing my own thing my own way. which, i think isn't bringing me very far.
hello goodbye; 2:26 PM


Don’t call it obsession, you don’t know love


Going Crazy- Song Ji Eun

It’s not love
This isn’t love
It’s just your obsession
Wherever
Whatever I do
It’s frightening
The you who watches me

I follow in your shadow
I make a phone call
I become thrilled at the sound of your shaking breath
My heart runs after your increasingly quick steps
I think I’ll go crazy
The long night gets darker
Under the dead streetlamp in front of your house
I’m watching you through the crack in your window
Until the night ends
Come on and find me
You keep playing a suffocating game of hide-and-seek with me
You, you, you
You’re inseparable from me

Have you gone crazy?
Why are you like this?
Please just leave me alone now
Seeing you is suffocating
Please disappear from my sight

You can never break away from me

You have no one to love but me
Try to escape
Wherever you are
I can see you
You know deeply
You can never break away from me
You have no one to love but me
Look at me now
I don’t wanna cry no more, more

Get lost
Just back off
I really can’t breathe
Wherever I go
Wherever I am
It’s frightening
The you who follows me

A hundred times
Tens of thousands of times
I’ve called you
But why, why is there no answer?
Did you forget?
It’s already been a thousand days since we met
I prepared a gift you’d like
I sit on the street you frequently travel
I’m waiting for you
I know my love
Don’t call it obsession, you don’t know love
Don’t say I’ve gone crazy
You don’t know my heart
You can never be separated from me

Have you gone crazy?
Why are you like this?
Please just leave me alone now
Seeing you is suffocating
Please disappear from my sight

You know you want me too
You know you love me
Don’t run away from me
Cut the crap
Get a hold of yourself and stop it
Let go of me now

This ain’t right
This isn’t love
It’s just hurts me, don’t be like this
I loved you
But I don’t now
Erase me from your memory

I don’t wanna cry no more, more




you just gotta love the guy. gosh are his covers and mash ups and whatever else good or what


hello goodbye; 1:24 PM


Sunday, March 13, 2011
HELLO BABE if you ever see this i just wanna say i love you very very very much. (: heh hehhhhhh
hello goodbye; 10:26 PM


Saturday, March 12, 2011
FIRE IN THE ATMOSPHERE
track meet yesterday! :D hehehheheheh it' s like 1000000 tomes more exciting than MG swim meet. maybe part of the reason was OG13 and the other part was people ogling with OG13. yes. people ogling (: what! can't be helped if NJ's like, deprived of hot people! so when the whole school's gathered at one place and all the athletes are all out (admit it. the athletes are mostly the hottest people around school), the best thing to do is people watch (: so anthea and me were like, omg that guy is so cute and that guy is so hot... stuff like that. rather shallow, but rather entertaining. and the guys were like, oh that girl is going out with that guys. blah blah blah blah. and i was cheering for a certain team during A div CCA relay. but they came in last ): i really really wanted them to win, given that they train everyday and put in so much effort into their sport. plus they're the buffest people around. but it seems like buff people can't beat slim people when it comes to running. maybe it's body mass. hahaha. but they sure can win tug of war (:
it was funny when i saw you jump for joy cause i thought it was darn cute hahha oops.

then there was the issue of height:

shaun: jing tian tian qi hen hao
me: oh, i know cause i'm like, really tall so you're asking me how's the weather up there!
shaun: eh you very suan lehhh. i'm not gonna talk to you for the rest of the year.
me: WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. NOOOOOOO. eh you're very xiao qi!
(shaun stalks away)
(shaun returns)
shaun: eh, if one day we can change heights, a wanna change with you ok.
me: huhhh. hahahahahah ok set.
shaun : huhhh??? really arh? ok can.
(offers me a handshake to seal the deal.)
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michael: shittt i'm still not taller than you.
i don't think you're gonna grow much anymore michael (:
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joel: WTS! people say i'm the perfect girlfriend height!!!

then we got fricking hungry towards the end of track meet and started talking about food. hahaha it was kinda weird cause we were standing on the track and screaming and groaning about how hungry and how much we craved whatever food while standing on the track. so the list of food OG13 craves ranges from dimsum to xiaolongbao to cream puffs and beard papa. hahaha. oh, and german pork knuckles. yesssssssss. :D

i chose to eat lunch with the awesomes despite knowing i'd get into trouble with my dad if i did (yes. i got into trouble last night all right. but i don't care. it was worth the time i spent with you guys. that's how important you all mean to me. (:) . jap food at J8! (: wasn't totally fantastic but good enough (: super glad i went for lunch cause it totally changed my mood that day. i was and still am kinda happy from yesterday. well, at least i'm not really screaming at anybody back home, even though i'm being scolded almost ever moment. ah wells. i shall try to be a happy kid. i shall upload lunch photos and videos sometime when i get my touch back from my dad.

ishouldtotallystopstaringatyouhahaahahbutshityou'retooawesomealready

oh, and shooting week one. dry fired for a whole week. didn't get to shoot a single bullet! ): but nevermind la. i'm doing fine i guess (: except i think my left middle finger is gonna die under the gun's weight. it's like numb every time after i train. and i'm gonna get callouses on that knuckle. as well as a bruise on my right upper arm. ah wells. the pains of taking up a sport. could have been much worse if i was in netball though. think of all the muscle ache i would have gotten by now. shooting seems to be a much better option. but no nationals this year for me. hopefully next year. or some minor competition sometime this year would be nice (:
hello goodbye; 4:00 PM


Monday, March 7, 2011
observe. and snicker in silence
i noticed 2 things today!!!!!

1) Schools get worse down bukit timah/dunearn road. ok lets see. the good schools, etc NJ, HCI, RGPS, Nanyang are all centered around the middle of bukit timah/dunearn road right! then look at what schools are further along dunearn (towards serene centre): SCGS, SJI, ACS (barker), CJC. hahahaha, you get the gist. and what about the other way? (down to KAP): MG!!!! peihwa presbyterian primary, CHIJ, chestnust drive sec (?? idk the name of the school la), assumption......... yuppp seeee???? COOOL NO? HAHAHAHA. i know i know. i'm glad i've studied on central bukit timah for the last 10 coming to 12 years ((:

2) HCI GUYS LIKE SNSD. OMG LIKE SERIOUSLY. 2 perfect examples on the bus today! one guys was wearing a pink rubber wrist band with the words GIRLS GENERATION printed in white. in caps. like siaoooo. he wore it to school somemore. and another guy, he was watching SNSD videos on his iPhone. i was like. OMG. idk if it's coincidence, but they were sitting beside each other on the bus and i didn't get a seat so i was looking over their shoulders and kinda watching the snsd video. hahahah!!! but eeeee. hwachong and snsd don't match :/

ohhh best part of today?

I GOT INTO SHOOTING. YES I DID. but it's rifle! and i'm not really into rifle cause it's so heavy and hard to cock. ): ah wells. should i go for that? or netball? but it's hard to get into shooting and since i'm in i shouldn't waste the opportunity right! ummmaaaaa. idk. i'll miss netball and carolyn ): and i'm sad shaun didn't get into shooting ): bahhhhhhhh.
hello goodbye; 6:06 PM


Saturday, March 5, 2011
it's been awhile since i did catch up on 2pm and suju! hahahahaha. i didn't spend alot of time but sufficient to help me survive the next week in school (:

yes. school's stressful and series and sequences are sucking the life out of me ): can't figure it out for nuts. blame it on sleeping and people spotting in lectures. hahahaaa. i think i'll have to ask one of the smarty pants in my class on how to do the questions!!! :/ hehhh. and econs is like, huhhhhh. hahaha. i gotta go figure out what the stupid demand and supply curves are trying to tell me. like seriously la.

and i haven't decided on my cca yet ): shooting is pending. cause i went for selection trials yesterday. omg my hand was shaking non-stop when i was shooting pistol ok. screwed up my 1st ten shots. then the second ten got better. hahaha. same thing for rifle. idk if i can get in. if i do, i'd be fulfilling my childhood dream. haha, i remember last time when nic told me about shooting and was bragging about how he could hold the really heavy pistol i really really admired him hahahaha. then i told myself i had to do it someday. well i figured the pistol's not as heavy as he described it to be! ): cheat my feelings. maybe cause last time we were like, sec1 and p6 and had no strength or something. hahaha. but my hand still shook anyways. sad for me.

watched heechul at some ss3 concert. oh gosh i wish i was the girl he kissed hehhhhhhhh.



and taec and soohyun are just adorable here.

and khun and taec.

oh and i love junsu. hehhhh

and as of late, sam tsui, thanks to abigail goh.


say hello to the little shift from kpop to english mainstream. small shift but a big change for me eh.
hello goodbye; 4:05 PM


Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Super Junior-M_太完美_MUSIC VIDEO_Taiwanese Ver.

i know this is a little late, but better late than never (: welcome back sj-m
hello goodbye; 6:15 PM


STALKERR

oh shittt, hahhaa. i can't believe i'm actually stalking people. omg i feel like such a freak!! :/ hehhhh. but it's actually quite fun. hahaha. to see who knows who and stuffs. shan't elaborate more cause it'll just be one long story. but. omg. haaahhh.

week2 of mugger class! hahaha. abigail and me wanted to spice up our uniform a little and we wanted to button the blouse to the top collar (to indicate to Mr C to button up his shirt a little more, but to no avail) and wear our skirts high and short. hahahaha, we didn't do it in the end though. abigail figured she looked retarded in that getup. ah wells. hahahaaa. but we did button up during math. but it didn't work. haha.

i miss everyone like mad. from MG to OG 13. i've been complaining that i miss OG13 since the last post, but still! ): hehhhh. i hope we all meet up soon. hehhh.

to my eleven who i hope can go out on the 18th. i miss you all so much

hello goodbye; 5:48 PM