RIGHT. UM. i didn't know bigbang did such songs. but omg top's so good in white glasses
a bunch of old bigbang stuff that i only bothered to check out now. never really thought of them as a dance group cause their MVs are mostly drama MVs. but la la la and gara garo go isn't bad. and it kinda proves TOP can dance. contrary to what me and siying assumed (: but still! taeyang always fronts the dance sequences and TOP gets relegated to the back. that must show something.
okk maybe i should have gotten bigbang's tonight album instead of sj-m's perfection and listened to saera. she's supposed to know what's good. drats. i should have listened. bigbang just keeps pushing the envelop. and they have way too many MVs. gonna watch more next timee ((:
SNSD
hello goodbye; 4:42 PM
POP POP POP POPCORN
garrettpopcorn.com
the ultimate popcorn (:
and barney’s take on popcorn has got to be the most accurate The Popcorn Song - Barney
Oh, you can hear it, you can see it. You can smell it, you can eat it. You can hear it, see it, smell it, eat it, Touch it, crunch it, taste it, munch it. Popcorn is really neat. Fun to make and fun to eat. Popcorn is a pop, pop, ever toppin, never boppin, show us stoppin' Zany kind of treat. The corn starts little, then it pops To a poppin' popcorn beat. It fills the popper to the top And then it's time to eat. Popcorn is really neat. Fun to make and fun to eat. Popcorn is a pop, pop, ever toppin, never boppin, show us stoppin' Zany kind of treat. Pop, pop, pop, popcorn! I can hear it playing. Pop, pop, pop, popcorn! I can smell it making. Pop, pop, pop, popcorn! I can see it shaking. Pop, pop, pop, popcorn. Time to do some tasting. I can hardly wait! Oh, you can hear it, see it, smell it, eat it, Touch it, crunch it, taste it, munch it. Popcorn is really neat. Fun to make and fun to eat. Popcorn is a pop, pop, ever to, MORE?
i miss the purple dinosaur
hello goodbye; 12:10 PM
Friday, April 29, 2011
substandard
today was a pretty good day! probably the best day of this week because everything was so gloomy and mediocre this week. i passed with an A for the first time! full marks for econs essay. i was super happy for the longest time after that. playing badminton with abigail, randy and yujie made me realise that my badminton seems to have improved heh heh! even though that’s rather impossible as i haven’t played it in more than 6 months. i was reminded of when we used to play badminton in the squash courts in mg. (: except in nj it was minus the screaming and squealing. yujie treats his sport seriously. i absolutely love GP lessons for the people who sit beside and around me. everytime we have GP, it’s MG gathering time cause half the class was from MG. and we sing the school song and bid farewell to ms tang the MG way. which she feels lacks sincerity. doesn’t it always? but it doesn’t matter to us. we crave and yearn for a sense of familiarity so much that we gain satisfaction from anything vaguely familiar. whether it’s singing the school song or routine bits and pieces of MG life or the smallest things that annabelle does that reminds me of 4E. GP keeps me rooted and alive. and it makes me realise just how poor my english is as of now. as chin would say it, it’s substandard. ): but i’ll get it up. yes i will. i don’t really see how blogging will help, but at least i write something on a regular basis. oh and did i mention that the people sitting behind me are the most epic? they make the most stupid and smart alecky comments. but omg i love it so much. and shooting. that’s by far the best. i got lovely photocards from carol today! one the benefits of being a shooter: personally choosing photocards (: really nice stuff she took herself! i shall upload some scans of them soon if possible. i didn’t train today again. but i’m fine because i absolutely love hanging out with everybody. the awesomest people around. and did i mention i can now play halo2? i shall move on to CS soon if chin is willing to guide me. oh and i really wanna thanks Samuel for telling me that my PI idea is good. that’s something i really needed to hear after having my PI shot down repeatedly and nobody can tell me anything good about it at all. but i still have my word count issues and i have to add a couple more points ): how now brown cow? I might not have learnt much from lectures and tutorials this week but here’s a list of stuff that i’ve learnt and find really really useful: 1) how to play bridge 2) how to play pool 3) how to play halo 4) how to play love the way you lie on the guitar (it’s real easy and abigail and i are gonna do a cover one day ((: have to figure a way to hit the high notes of the chorus, though) 5) SUBSTANDARD. (chin’s word that keeps rolling off me and abigail’s tongue) i guess i go to school to learn about everything except for studies. isn’t that nice. *i’m typing this while i’m half asleep. please forgive grammatical errors etc. life in jc is exhausting. :/
hello goodbye; 11:23 PM
Thursday, April 28, 2011
STARBUCKS
today hasn't been the best of days. infact, it's probably one of the worst school days i've had this year. i was depressed the entire day for reasons unknown to me. i bet it’s the hangover effect from being emo last night. the only time i felt kinda happy was during shooting pt. the best way to start your day-with happy, crazy people (: but after that was another steep drop. i was super duper quiet today i bet alot of people found it disturbing. even yujie asked me why i was so emo/tired today. i just am. do i need to have a reason? tired really really tired. i'm still doing my PI and not getting anywhere. which sucks. fb is a major distractor and kpop is everything else. oh and blogger. if i don't have any of these tabs open i start falling asleep. exhausted. and i want soy strawberries and cream starbucks frappucino. i've spent way too much this week but i still want it. oh or mocha frappe would do. all with extra cream thank you very much.
i've been playing with this tonight and decided i need something mocha and chocolate. as soon as possible. i remember elizabeth saat once told me how brother ordered frappes like: mocha frappe with double whipped cream i-don't-know-what-else and baileys irish creme. SERIOUSLY. I only remember the last bit. haha cause i love baileys.
laurene foo/loy ern wei. we better go starbucks soonest.
hello goodbye; 7:50 PM
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
giving up
i give up. i’m not getting anywhere with my life. right now i’m just screwing around and not putting in effort into the things i do.
or so you think.
you want to pull me out of school? fine, i say go ahead. it just means i lose the opportunities i’ve secured for myself. for the first time, i’ve built up a rep in school. not a screwed rep. but a good one. i’ve got a chance to fulfil my childhood dream to shoot. i’ve had more opportunity to talk to others about God than i would ever have in MG. take me out. but i won’t leave without a fight. i know my studies aren’t at it’s best right now. no, it’s not even anywhere near my best. this is the lowest point i’ve ever had in my studies. you’ve heard of straight As. now you hear of straight failures. every single paper. 8A1s to straight failures. ask anyone i know who didn’t do half as well as me in Os. where are they now? standing proud cause they’re excelling. but at least i'm trying. contrary to what you believe. say what you like. i don't give a damn anymore.
there are days that i really wish there'd be someone who can really listen to me. today's one of those days. i need a huge hug. from anyone. but, a hug from a specific person would go a long way in making me feel much much better. but that's just unrealistic. stupid me. but i still need a hug anyway. give me one the next time you see me.
hello goodbye; 11:18 PM
Monday, April 25, 2011
confusion
Every time i think of you, it really pains me cause i have no idea what’s gonna become of you. the direction you’re taking isn’t right. believe me. no matter how you deem it to be acceptable, i really cannot accept the fact that you’ve made such a drastic decision. i know i’m acting as if i’ve never met someone like you before. ok, i kinda haven’t. everything i’ve know so far have been rumours. i’ve never had someone just tell me in the face. and it’s not as if i don’t know you. i’ve known you since years back and i’ve hung out with you so much. it’s very shocking and worrying to know that someone i knew as normal has changed so drastically. i care for you very very much. and really. i think all you’re searching for is the care and concern and love which you’ve never experienced. it’s sad cause you’re looking for that in all the wrong places. i don’t want to start giving you long lectures and stuff cause you’re not gonna like it, so I'm just being supportive of who you are now. i try to forget. but you resurface in my mind so very often. i want to help, but i just don’t know how to. each time i start thinking of how this might possibly continue into the future and what would happen if you decided to take it a step further, i gasp. in pain. it’s as if someone’s jamming a blade right through my heart. that’s how much it hurts for me to pretend to accept that everything’s just normal. fine and dandy. i’m really hoping that you’ll take a step back and reflect on where you’ve gone wrong. maybe try to rectify the mistake. which step did you take and lose your footing? why was i not there when you fell? i need to bring you back to the person i once knew. you’re far from it now.
hello goodbye; 9:38 PM
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
53 mutual friends
everything about you makes me smile. the way you flick your hair, the way you talk, the way you walk. your cheekbones. everything. it sounds really weird, but i can recognise the sound of your footsteps even though i've never walked with you before. i can recognise the sound of your voice even though we've never talked. it's going a little overboard but i can't believe how much i just wanna see you smile at me again. it's been weeks since you last smiled at me. i can't even remember the last time you did. i know i'm not supposed to expect much from you cause i don't even know you. it's just that we happen to have mutual friends. that's all. so a smile would suffice. i kills me each time i see you and it's like, i'm so close yet so far from you. especially this morning. not once, but twice. you were just that little distance behind, and i can't even do anything about it. it'd be awkward if i said hi. so. it's upsetting. i was depressed the entire morning because of you. odd isn't it? considering i don't even stand a chance.
and this is the billionth time your name is popping out in my friends you may know column. my heart stops each time i see it. 53 mutual friends. such an easy excuse to add you. but i shall not.
hello goodbye; 7:34 PM
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
DANGER
to my favourite girls, congrats on your awesome comeback :D i can't believe how great everybody looks here. especially amber and victoria
hello goodbye; 5:37 PM
Sunday, April 17, 2011
can't let you go even if i die
listen to their emotions. omg my heart almost broke when i listened to this song. it's pretty old, but i finally got down to watching the mv. 2am can really emote more when it comes to vocals as compared to 2pm hehh. but they're not as good looking. ah wells
I DID WRONG-2AM
I was wrong wrong wrong Your words were so, so, so sweet that I didn't realize you were playing me, me, me with your words, words, words everyday
Baby do you really wanna hurt me? Why are you doing this to me? why?
The stories regarding your other men The stories regarding your behavior I tried to ignore and pretended that I didn't hear but
The way you act when you are intoxicated The way you smile at my friend Change it Stop it Even though I tell you many times
* You say I'm so sorry only for that moment You say I will change only for that moment My heart in pa, pa, pain it hurts but I can't help but repeating
# I was wrong wrong wrong Your words were so, so, so sweet that I didn't realize you were playing me, me, me with your words, words, words everyday Baby you breaking my heart Baby you hurting my heart I want to stop this I know this is wrong but I keep going back to you
Baby you and I Like a bad popular song I'm crying inside, but I force a smile like a clown Baby you and I Like a bad popular song I'm crying inside
Rap: My heart and body go astray I am a such fool with no pride that Although I was deceived by love I wipe my tears and just go back to you knowing that this is wrong The fact that I am a toy that you played and threw away Makes my feeling unbearable But Why! Why! Why! Why! Today I am a clown who smiles in front of you again
hello goodbye; 5:59 PM
chingz wasn't around for half of this week D: it was pure torture the first few days, but i figured who to hang out with! nothing against the girls, but, they're kinda quiet and not really my type, so i don't really hang out with them much. i know i should try to get to know them better and all, but, that can wait. but the good side is i got to know eehua alot better this week! she's someone worth taking the time to talk to and get to know more about. then yesterday i spent the whole day with the guys. like omg i think the girls in class think i'm weird or something! but hanging out with guys just means so much less politics and so much more fun. so i don't care what others think but yeaaahhhhhhhhhhhh. haha (omg that was wisely's yeaaahhhhhhhhhhh by the way) awesome stuff. hahaha to all my babes, i love you all for letting me tag along (:
and i shot really really poorly this week. i have no idea what's wrong with me. everytime i train i screw up )): ah wells.
hello goodbye; 12:16 AM
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
OMG I HAVE TO WRITE THIS. I HATE MYSELF FOR SHOOTING 5 AWESOME SHOTS ON MY FIRST CARD AND SCREWING THE SUBSEQUENT 10. IDK WHY, BUT IT'S NOT THE FIRST TIME IT'S HAPPENED. AND IT'S ANNOYING. D:
and abigails not around for my sleeper period tomorrow. how now brown cow. noone to copy notes from
anw. i don't really know willabelle that well but omg check out her lookbook :O super awesome stuffs http://lookbook.nu/willaaaa my my myy.
i could spend hours on lookbook. oh no. ok imma stop. pi is very annoying
hello goodbye; 11:02 PM
RISK D:
I AM POSITIVELY PISSED WITH PI D: and i am jealous of shaun chin's PI, i have this very strong urge to post it here and let the whole world see. it's that good. anyone really needs a tip on how to write PI, i shall share it with you privately ahahaha. don't tell shaun ((:
omg i just realised he copied my whole first paragraph. unfair!
mine: Every choice we make in life involves a risk. Personally, I define risk as choosing an option with the possibility of loss. The loss experienced could differ in magnitude, depending on the situation and the kind of risk taken. I believe that to get ahead in life, it is necessary to have the discernment to choose the risks worth taking. However, there are also unnecessary risks, which we would be better off not taking, as the negative outcomes would far outweigh the positive ones.
shaun: Risk can be defined as an act that entails a possibility of loss. The factors that determine if a risk is high are if the degree of possibility of failure and the magnitude of potential lost or gain. The reason why I chose this topic is because risks are unavoidable and deeply embedded in every segment of our lives — the decisions we make at various crossroads. These risks we take may determine if we are heading towards excellence or detriment.
chin, imma kill you.
i had this long talk with eehua today. instead of studying, like i was supposed to. it was a good talk ahahahaa. i learnt so much about her today but the content of our discussion shall remain a secret (:
SHOOTING NATIONALS START TOMORROW! so exciting (: gonna support next thursday and pray very hard that A div ARG does well (: i know they can. jy everybody! ahaha can't wait for bonding camp in may and famine camp in june. omg so excited. yay yay yay yay.
should i pon NE tomorrow for shooting at 740 in the morning? i really really hate NE. big waste of time. ):
hello goodbye; 9:19 PM
Saturday, April 9, 2011
SJM
this is probably th only time chinese comes in handy hahaha. now i can gloat to cyn about knowing chinese while she has to wait for subs (:
hello goodbye; 6:00 PM
that should be me
That Should Be Me - Justin Bieber
Everybody's laughing in my mind Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy
Do you do what you did, what you did with me? Does he love you the way I can? Did you forget all the plans that you made with me? 'Cause baby, I didn't
That should be me holding your hand That should be me making you laugh That should be me, this is so sad That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss That should be me buying you gifts This is so wrong, I can't go on 'Til you believe that that should be me That should be me
You said you needed a little time for my mistakes It's funny how you use that time to have me replaced Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies? Whatcha doing to me?
You're taken' him where we used to go Now if you're trying to break my heart It's working 'cause you know
That, that should be me holding your hand That should be me making you laugh That should be me, this is so sad That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss That should be me buying you gifts This is so wrong, I can't go on 'Til you believe that should be me
I need to know should I fight for our love or disown? It's getting harder to shield this pain in my heart, ooh
That should be me holding your hand That should be me making you laugh That should be me, this is so sad That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss That should be me buying you gifts This is so wrong, I can't go on 'Til you believe that that should be me, ooh
Holding your hand, that should be me The one making you laugh, oh baby Oh, that should be me, yeah
That should be me, giving you flowers That should be me, talking for hours That should be me, that should be me That should be me
Never should've let you go I never should've let you go That should be me Never should've let you go That should be me
Never should've let you go Never should've let you go That should be me
we all have your little fantasies don't we.
hello goodbye; 5:39 PM
Monday, April 4, 2011
life seems a little duller without you
tomorrow's gonna be class lunch at burger shack!! super excited and i really hope everyone comes (: hopefully it'd be fun cause me and abigail g are really trying to drum up class enthusiasm and bonding hahaaa. went back to mg with abee chan the awesome today. i realised how much i've missed her! but i really needa catch up with chi and xuan alot. rawr. nobody's ever free at the same time, are we?
i have to start doing PI like, now. if not i die. but idk what to write about at all so it feels so much easier to just blog. drats. i think i better get cracking before it's too late :/
i'll miss you for the days you're not there. hm. maybe i'm moving on already. but i still think about the other person hahaaa. totally sexy today.
hello goodbye; 8:49 PM
Sunday, April 3, 2011
take me deeper in love with You
it's been awhile since i posted! :O hahahaha. been really busy with school and shooting and aims and all that crap. ah wells.
but student council elections are over! i hope hope hope and pray hard that ernie, saera, carolyn and qp get in ((: hahaha. the rest can go figure themselves out.
oh and did i mention i get to skip school to support shooting nationals!! hahaha super happyyy. but that means i'll have to make up physics lab ALONE ):
is it just me or is homework kinda little? i think it's cause the teachers don't tell us to do homework. we're just EXPECTED to do it with a great deal of initiative. which is something singaporeans don't really have. seriously! if mg people call me mugger anymore, i shall point my finger at those in my class, who NEVER EVER HAND IN HOMEWORK LATE (except guanju and sean ahahha.) and NEVER EVER SLEEP IN CLASS. this is totally my forte, the sleeping in class thing. i can be willing myself to stay awake and the next minute ms tai's calling me to wake up. like, infront of the whole class really really loudly. ): sighs. how now brown cow? it's only me and sean who sleep in class. it gets so bad ok. there are times i can barely stay awake 10 minutes into the tutorial then i sleep/am sleepy for the next half an hour. by the time i'm fully awake, there's only ten to twenty minutes of tutorial left. oh, and i slept through the whole of econs tutorial last thursday. but that wasn't so bad cause sean and yujie were fast asleep as well. (: the only bad part is we don't understand anything the lecturer is saying for the next few lectures till he finishes the topic. oh wait. so back to the seeming lack of homework! i think we're SUPPOSED to do MI tutorial and basic mastery questions on our own accord by next week so mr chee can go through with us. so i chiongged a little today. but i'm not making much progress, considering i've been doing math the whole day ): and i thought chem gases was a easy topic till i started doing it. chem can go die. cause we're already on chemical bonding now and that chapter is killer. for now. can't wait for organic chem. :/
and did i mention? i think i'm the dumbest person in my elite class. to all those who've seen me get continuous A1s in secondary school and always wished i failed one day, you all be happy now. i've failed every single subject test. yes. including physics. by a frigging half mark. and they were all careless mistakes. omg i hate myself. i feel super inferior in class. even people who don't really study (sean) and people busy with nats (abigial g) can pass. and maybe pass with flying colours. and what do i get for all the effort? fail. this has never happened to me before ): really really demoralising.
but other than that, class just keeps getting better and better. i shall not classify people into prc just cause of their behaviour anymore. i shall only do that when it comes to studies. and you know i'll only do it jokingly (: i guess i've come to accept people for who they are.
worship yesterday was so so powerful. i wasn't as if God spoke to me audibly or anything. but it was as if His love was suddenly so tangible and real. almost broke down. but i'm a strong person. (: and now i know God loves me more than any other human could ever try to love me. totally excited to face the new week even though things that might come my way won't be very pleasant cause i know i have God and that's all i ever need.
