LION HEARTED LOVE

Wednesday, April 27, 2011 giving up

i give up. i’m not getting anywhere with my life. right now i’m just screwing around and not putting in effort into the things i do.

or so you think.

you want to pull me out of school? fine, i say go ahead. it just means i lose the opportunities i’ve secured for myself. for the first time, i’ve built up a rep in school. not a screwed rep. but a good one. i’ve got a chance to fulfil my childhood dream to shoot. i’ve had more opportunity to talk to others about God than i would ever have in MG. take me out. but i won’t leave without a fight. i know my studies aren’t at it’s best right now. no, it’s not even anywhere near my best. this is the lowest point i’ve ever had in my studies. you’ve heard of straight As. now you hear of straight failures. every single paper. 8A1s to straight failures. ask anyone i know who didn’t do half as well as me in Os. where are they now? standing proud cause they’re excelling. but at least i'm trying. contrary to what you believe. say what you like. i don't give a damn anymore.

there are days that i really wish there'd be someone who can really listen to me. today's one of those days. i need a huge hug. from anyone. but, a hug from a specific person would go a long way in making me feel much much better. but that's just unrealistic. stupid me. but i still need a hug anyway. give me one the next time you see me.

hello goodbye; 11:18 PM