LION HEARTED LOVE

Monday, April 25, 2011 confusion

Every time i think of you, it really pains me cause i have no idea what’s gonna become of you. the direction you’re taking isn’t right. believe me. no matter how you deem it to be acceptable, i really cannot accept the fact that you’ve made such a drastic decision. i know i’m acting as if i’ve never met someone like you before. ok, i kinda haven’t. everything i’ve know so far have been rumours. i’ve never had someone just tell me in the face. and it’s not as if i don’t know you. i’ve known you since years back and i’ve hung out with you so much. it’s very shocking and worrying to know that someone i knew as normal has changed so drastically. i care for you very very much. and really. i think all you’re searching for is the care and concern and love which you’ve never experienced. it’s sad cause you’re looking for that in all the wrong places. i don’t want to start giving you long lectures and stuff cause you’re not gonna like it, so I'm just being supportive of who you are now. i try to forget. but you resurface in my mind so very often. i want to help, but i just don’t know how to. each time i start thinking of how this might possibly continue into the future and what would happen if you decided to take it a step further, i gasp. in pain. it’s as if someone’s jamming a blade right through my heart. that’s how much it hurts for me to pretend to accept that everything’s just normal. fine and dandy. i’m really hoping that you’ll take a step back and reflect on where you’ve gone wrong. maybe try to rectify the mistake. which step did you take and lose your footing? why was i not there when you fell? i need to bring you back to the person i once knew. you’re far from it now.

hello goodbye; 9:38 PM